It may have taken me a long time to figure this out…but I’ve never actually been true to myself.
I’ve always acted on things that I thought people wanted to see. I never acted on the first guy I liked in high school because we had too many friends in common and I was always worried what they thought of me…thought of what I saw in him… I’m such a dumba**! …only doing things for approval.
I always say how I hate when I see others seeking approval for their actions…and now I realize that I’M the one doing it…maybe more than them.
I don’t know how to stop. I don’t know how to change. I don’t know how to be brave.
Will I change? Hopefully…but probably not for a while. I need to find my courage…my strength…to do the possible. I just need to find the right footing and motivation.
Why haven’t I ever thought of this before?!