Maybe I’m just dreaming out loud…

“Come Home” by OneRepublic and Sara Bareilles

Hello world
Hope you’re listening
Forgive me if I’m young
For speaking out of turn
There’s someone I’ve been missing
I think that they could be
The better half of me
They’re in the wrong place trying to make it right
But I’m tired of justifying
So I say you’ll…

Come home, come home

‘Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long, for so long
And right now there’s a war between the vanities
But all I see is you and me
And the fight for you is all I’ve ever known
So come home…

“Hold My Heart” by Sara Bareilles

Does anybody know
How to hold my heart
How to hold my heart?
‘Cause I don’t want to let go
Let go, let go too soon…

I want to tell you so
Before the sun goes dark
How to hold my heart
‘Cause I don’t want to let go
Let go, let go of you…

Oh, how these songs speak to me right now. What a tragic situation I’m in…

Two nights ago I had a dream about him…we were kissing…like how we used to kiss… Earlier in the night (in reality) we went swing dancing with a bunch of our friends to celebrate my 21st birthday…and he kissed my cheek and so I leaned in to see if he would kiss me…and he did. Before that kiss, we hadn’t kissed in two weeks.

Then, last night, I had a dream that we were singing together. We had rehearsal together last night (in reality) for a choir we’re both in…and he likes to continue to sing even after rehearsal is done. He has a really pretty voice…

I saw him only yesterday and I’m probably going to see him tomorrow…but it seems like forever. I miss him. I miss him being cute to me…for me…

He says I deserve better…so what? I don’t care. It’s my decision…and I want him…


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