Glitter in the Air

Glitter in the Air – P!nk

Have you ever fed a lover with just your hands?
Closed your eyes and trusted, just trusted?
Have you ever thrown a fist full of glitter in the air?
Have you ever looked fear in the face and said, “I just don’t care”?

It’s only half past the point of no return
The tip of the iceberg
The sun before the burn
The thunder before the lightning
The breath before the phrase
Have you ever felt this way?

Have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone?
You’re whole life waiting on the ring to prove you’re not alone
Have you ever been touched so gently you had to cry?
Have you ever invited a stranger to come inside?

It’s only half past the point of oblivion
The hourglass on the table
The walk before the run
The breath before the kiss
And the fear before the flames
Have you ever felt this way?

La La La La La La La La

There you are, sitting in the garden
Clutching my coffee,
Calling me sugar
You called me sugar

Have you ever wished for an endless night?
Lassoed the moon and the stars and pulled that rope tight?
Have you ever held your breath and asked yourself will it ever get better than tonight?

Regret. Longing. Self-reproach. Heartbreak. Wistfulness. Nostalgia.

I can’t say that I know what Pink is really singing about…but, in a sense, I know exactly what she’s singing about.


Gives Me Hope

This website is one of the greatest websites I’ve ever had the pleasure of coming across.

Reading the little stories and repeatedly listening to “Maestro” from the soundtrack of The Holiday makes me cry.

So heartening, so hopeful, so beautiful…

It amazes me to see how people in this crazy world do actually have hearts.

People who do good things and help others no matter the consequences GMH.

Nicholas Winton is one the most wonderful and beautiful people. Read his story.


Finally, I have my license!!!!!

This past Friday I took my driving test at the Daly City DMV after just two driving lessons. Of course, I’ve been driving since last summer, but I’ve only taken lessons this summer.

It took me awhile to figure out what car I was going to use… I could’ve used my instructor’s car because that’s the one I felt comfortable in…however, I got used to my mom’s Lexus SUV. So I took a chance and just drove hers for the test.

My mom and I got to the DMV and the first thing we do is make the lady at the desk laugh. My appointment was at 11 AM but you never know if she’s already had a bad morning. So, if you make them laugh, the mood is lightened and all goes well…better sometimes! I got the papers and stuff and got back into the car and got in the long line of people waiting to take the driving exam. The only thing running through my head was “lighten the mood and you’ll do fine!” My music was pretty loud and hopefully wasn’t too disturbing to the others, but that’s how I prepare. I knew I had everything under control, but I needed to mentally prepare myself because I had told quite a few people about the test, which was beginning to psyche me out. “What would they think if I didn’t pass?” I kept thinking to myself. I had to pass. No question about it. My mom and I couldn’t stop laughing as “Bad Romance” was playing. If I listen to my favorite music, I’m good to go.

As I drove up to the first spot, I turned the music off. It was my turn and I had to focus. The examiner began telling me to turn signals on and point to where various things in the car were. He told me to honk my horn and I willingly did so…but, just as I did that, a man walked by and looked at me nervously. “Sorry!!! That wasn’t for you! He told me to!” I exchanged nervous glances with the man and the examiner just laughed. Then he told me to honk again, so I did and we just laughed the whole thing off. “Yes! Starting off on his good side!” I must have had a big smile on face by this point. The examiner got in my car and off we went. After exactly fifteen minutes of turning, lane changing, neck-breaking glancing, and carefully listening, he told me to drive back into the DMV parking lot and park. I did just that and then he asked for a few minutes to finish writing. “You passed,” he said so nonchalantly. “Really? Yes!” I replied to him.

My examiner got out of the car first. My mom was watching as he walked towards the door she was sitting next to. He had a stern look on his face. “So, is she a safe one?” my mom wondered aloud. “Oh yeah! She’s ready!” he responded. I was a few steps behind him and all I saw was my mom’s big grin. We walked into the DMV again to get my interim license. Almost two hours had passed since I checked in at the desk, but the same lady was there…and she had the biggest smile on her face when she saw me walking towards her.

See? Lighten the mood and people are happy to see you again. Why complain? Their job is stressful enough. If you pester them, they may just make you wait even longer.

Just be happy!

Anyone want to go driving with me?! =P

What a bummer…

Sunday night and my family just drove back from SoCal for my cousin’s 4th birthday party… I was SOOO looking forward to going to the opening night of this new swing dance venue at the ROCKIT ROOM on Clement Street in SF. It was the perfect plan! Get home around 7:30 PM, get food at 8 PM, go dancing by 9 PM… FREE DANCING!

Three of my friends from SoCal (two were actually the first people to teach me back in January of this year) were up here for the Down Home Blues Weekend in SF and my best friend and I told them about it and they were so excited to see us again. BUT, as soon as my best friend and I got to the door, we saw that there was a bouncer CARDING people. WTF? Well, with my head low, I gave the tattooed bouncer my California ID which indicated that I was clearly not of age to enter. “Wow! You’ve got a-ways to go, huh?” the bouncer asked in disbelief that I even tried. He gave me back my ID and my best friend looked at me with sad eyes. We didn’t know what to do. The event advertised on Facebook didn’t say that attendees had to be 21, so we just figured it was just another chill venue. But then we realized that this place was only a bar; they didn’t serve food which would allow them to open the place up to minors……….boooooo. After about five minutes of standing out in the cold and not knowing what to do, a bunch of our friends (who we met over the summer and who were in the Rockit Room) came out and asked what was going on. “Apparently they card and I can’t go in because I’m not 21…” I repeated to everyone who asked me. Ugh, this was the most embarrassing thing that’s happened to me in awhile. The guy who advertised and invited everyone over Facebook came out and talked to me a little bit. He decided to ask the owner if I could be an exception, but that was a futile endeavor.

One of my older friends gave my purse and shoe bag to my best friend, took my hand, and proceeded to dance with me outside. “Awww, you guys are so sweet!” That put the biggest smile on my sad, little face. When one of my friends from SoCal arrived, he also took my hand and proceeded to dance with me outside. At least twelve people were standing outside with me at this point.

Awww, I’m loved! ♥

My best friend looked at me and we both knew that I should just go home. I called my mom and she picked me up…thankfully, I live about five minutes away from the place. Oh, well…in eight months!

Feelin’ like a kid again…

Today was my younger cousin’s 4th birthday party. I was sooo nice to be taken back to my younger days…the parks…the food…the goody bags…the fun! It was especially awesome because my aunt and uncle had rented a Disney-themed bounce house for the occasion! What a thrill!!! Yeah, yeah…I know what you’re thinking. “How old am I exactly?!” Hah well, I am still pretty young. 20 years young to be exact… 21 in 8 months! Well, everyone likes to be taken back once in awhile…back to when we were 4 or 5.


How to Save a Life

Have you ever watched The Fray’s “How To Save A Life” music video?

You have no excuse. Go watch it now.

It’s quite powerful and almost brought me to tears…

My curiosity of The Fray came about when I heard a live version of “Happiness” and the singer cracked and had to start over. He’s just a person…just like you and me. He’s not perfect. This brought about laughter among the crowd and one girl shouted “I love you!!!” So I got curious and decided to YouTube The Fray. “How To Save A Life” was the first video of theirs so I watched it.

I delved deep into it’s message. Besides the plain background when the band is playing…besides the crying children…besides the inspirational list of phrases…it’s quite clear that the video is about death, but I got something else out of it. It seemed to me that it was more about suicide. It didn’t hit me at first because the video shows children holding pictures of older people (probably older relatives who have passed on) and so I immediately thought they just lost them to natural causes. But the words of the chorus (which I had totally forgotten about) offered a different story:

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Clearly a different message.

The inspirational words, however, were amazing. Very strategically placed also.

“Listen. Hold still. Dad. Mom. Let it go. Live in love. Talk to someone. Cry. Accept. Forgive. Fear. Release. Have faith. Surrender. Release the fear. Love. Secure. Open up. Remember. Say goodbye.”

It’s a story in itself.

What a powerful song.