Afraid of Love

Hmm not really… It’s just the cutest song I’m listening to right now called “Afraid of Love” by Beth Waters. Here are the lyrics:

I used to hide behind the curtains of my living room
Everytime I thought about you coming to my door
I would hang up the phone before you ever said hello
And dash into another aisle when I’d see you at the store

I was afraid
I was afraid
I was afraid of love
I was afraid
I was afraid
I was afraid of love

One day I noticed I was looking for your face in crowds
And wondered if in fact you had forgotten about me
I waited by the phone to see if you would call again
And watched out of my window with my head upon my knees

I wanna fall
I wanna fall
I wanna fall in love
I wanna fall
I wanna fall
I wanna fall in love

Now I see love everywhere I go
It’s in the songs on the radio
An old couple sitting in the park at noon
Eating heart shaped cookies
Oh God, what did I do?

Then came the day that I had secretly been wishing for
You walked into a coffee shop where I was having tea
I glanced into your eyes, my body started panicking
Then suddenly your head came down and kissed me on the cheek
From there it’s all a blur, I can’t remember what you said
I just kept staring at your lips, repeating in my head the words

I am in love
I am in love
I am in love with you
I am in love
I am in love
I am in love with you

Ooo ooo ooo ooo

I am in love
In love with you

Perfect for preparing myself for Valentine’s Day… The butterflies you feel, the giggles that appear and words that disappear, and the rush you get when that one person you really like stares a little longer than normal… I haven’t had this feeling in a long time. I haven’t actually had a Valentine since my sophomore year in high school. Even then, all I did was give him a chocolate Kiss and an awkward hug and then slowly scooted away. Haha cute but lame… I know.

Well, I must admit that I’ve been getting those feelings again. ♥. Yes, I am thinking a lot more about one certain person. It seems we are pretty similar, especially in the way we act around each other. We both seem to be shy and a little awkward. Hmm I don’t want to give away who that person is… But let’s just leave it at this. I may have to make the first move, which would be okay… However, (haha a million eyes will read this now…) the “boyfriend” that I did have before… hahaha we were too shy to do anything. No kiss… nothing! On our first date we watched Scary Movie 4 with one of my best friends and her boyfriend. First of all, horrible date movie… I mean, seriously? I can’t believe we all decided on it. I also may have gotten nightmares from the stupid scenes from The Grudge. Secondly, my friend and her boyfriend were lip-locked at the very end, and my date and I felt a little awkward. We held hands and had a really nice, long hug. That’s about it! I think it’s just me who’s awkward. Shy awkward… Cute awkward?! Hmm, whatever, it’s still awkward.

Anyway, so there’s my story. I would be okay to make the first move if I had had an actual relationship before… Well, maybe I could just rebel and I’ll make the first move. That’d be kind of awesome! But, would that change the dynamics of the relationship? Who cares?! I think I’ll just go ahead and try…

5 DAYS ‘TIL VALENTINE’S DAY!!!!! ♥

I’ll leave you with some of my photos that I took late January up in Julian, CA at Camp Cedar Glen:

Ciao for now! ♫ ☺ ☮

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