I find myself looking forward to this upcoming year! So much has happened over the past twelve months and I can’t wait to see what’s going to happen next. So many new friends, so many new memories, so much laughter shared… I have truly loved this year, but I long for adventure… I long for something new… Something lovely… New year’s resolution: FIND LOVE.

A couple days ago, some of my friends and I had a girls night and we all slept over at the house of one of my best friends. We let each other rant about guys and their issues with certain guys. We came to a conclusion that guys are sensitive, guys are insecure, and guys are emotional. Maybe even more than girls! I’ve never actually had a real relationship and I’m curious. But… unfortunately, most of them have had, umm, “interesting” relationships. Their advice to me? Don’t do it… Don’t ever be in a relationship. They will just tear you apart and it’ll be hard watching you be sad because you’re always happy and carefree.

But if you find a guy, make sure he’s worth it. Make sure he’s good to you and trusts you deeply. Communicate well with each other. Don’t forget about trust. It’s the most important of all. You won’t go anywhere in a relationship without trust.

I’m not going to say exactly what was said (what’s said in the room stays in the room!) but that was the basic summary of it.

The song on repeat now? “I Want to Know What Love Is” by Mariah Carey. How fitting… It’s true though. I want to try it out for a change. I’ve been so wrapped up in doing my own thing. I’ve always said that I was self-sufficient enough and that people are only in a relationship because they are incomplete without one. I didn’t need one. I never wanted one. But now I want to see what all this craziness is. What is love? How does one fall in love? How does anyone let themselves open up to trust another with everything? I want to see for myself. I finally want it… I will open myself up… I want to know what it feels like to be wanted, to be loved, to hold hands, to snuggle, to be kissed…

It’s so beautiful…

Anyway, other new year’s resolutions…

MANAGE MY TIME BETTER: I have so many things that I love doing and I need to find a way to do them all. Singing, dancing, playing the piano, working out, hanging out with friends, doing homework, other school stuff… These are most of the things that I need to juggle around.

DO BETTER IN MY CLASSES: I find that if I’m in a class I really like, I will try as hard as I can to do well in it. I will make an effort. I need to find a way to do this for every class because, obviously, not every class I take can be something I like. I need to make time to finish all of my homework in a reasonable amount of time. I need to start papers and projects earlier. I need to pay attention in class.

LEARN SOMETHING NEW: I love learning! Whether it be a new language, a new recipe for cooking, a new song, a new dance… I want to learn something. I live to learn! Even just making a new close friend would suffice because it’d be something new.

KEEP UP WITH MY FRIENDS: I find it’s getting harder and harder to keep up with everyone. My friends back home all have new experiences and I have no idea what’s going on half the time. It’s a horrible feeling not knowing what is going on in the lives of my good friends. I need to recapture the moments I’ve spent with them. I need to rekindle our friendship. I need to spend more time getting to know newer friends.

Ahhhhh, I just need time altogether! I wish the days had another hour, or five. Everything I mentioned for a resolution involves having time. I guess, then, managing my time better would be the best one …besides finding love. ❤

We will open the book. Its pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The book is called Opportunity and its first chapter is New Year’s Day.” ~ Edith Lovejoy Pierce


I Love You, Period.

I wrote the following post earlier today in the car on my way up to SF…

So, I’ll be honest. Last night I started my period… Whatever guys, get used to it. If you’re ever going to get married, you’ll have to be the one to go buy you woman ibuprofen, tampons, and chocolate. Anyway, so I woke up this morning and had to take ibuprofen quickly so that I wasn’t overrun by my cramps. My horrible, horrible cramps. One of the most excruciating pains ever. Best part of it? There is no best part… It just sucks. All you can do is nothing. I often end up lying on my bed, sometimes rolling around trying to ease some of it (lying flat on my stomach hardly works, but it’s worth a try), trying to breathe but it’s difficult when it feels like you’re getting stabbed in your abdomen every ten seconds, and trying to suppress my moans. I don’t know how I’m ever going to give birth, but I want children, so I’ll grin and bear it. I don’t suppose I get moody when I’m on my period. Just really bad cramps… My mom said she used to get awful cramps AND get moody. I got the cramps while my sister got the moodiness.

However, there are certain times when I just can’t help but get moody as well. After all, the hormones running through me just can’t hold back sometimes. Haha, well, one example is (once again) my sister. I was perfectly fine, maybe a little stressed over taking only 600mg of ibuprofen this morning and not being sure whether or not it would last the eight-hour drive back to SF that awaited me. I know 600mg sounds like a lot for someone my size, but I usually take 800mg. Depending on my cramps, which almost always turn bad really fast 600-800mg is perfect and lasts a good 6-8 hours. Hopefully, I’ll be fine.

On with my story… So, there are some kinds of people who accept what they are given for Christmas and are even really happy for the next couple of hours or days. Then, they look at other people and their joy and are happy for them. I’m one of those kinds of people… My sister is the first half, but not the second half. She always needs to compare what others get to something better. Of course, whenever she gets something and people are happy for her she’s elated. But when I get something, she says “Oh, but you know about blah blah blah? That one is awesome!” All right, what are you trying to say? Mine isn’t good enough? It’s good enough for me. After all, it’s what I wanted, not you. If you think the other one is more awesome, then why didn’t you ask for it for Christmas? Be happy for me, for once. Unbelievable!

This is going to sound bad again, but I was slightly happy last night when she was playing this stupid video game on Wii. Her character kept dying, or not doing what she wanted, and she kept swearing her head off. Seriously, it’s just a game. Relax a little before you pop a vein. It’s nothing to get all stressed out over. You should have seen her! She was ready to kill something! Sure, most people get pissed off a little (even me), especially if it’s a game that you always come back to and spend hours on and then it dies when you’re about to save. But, honestly, it’s a game she plays maybe once a year… She wanted to save it. Really now?! You were getting pissed at a video game that you were hoping to play next year? I’m not sure what you all think, but, to me, it’s not worth it. That’s just her…

Another thing she does is cut people off when they’re talking about something. She would just cut people off and think her words are more important. It’s so annoying… Then it’s like “Umm okay I don’t even remember what I was talking about anymore. Gee thanks.” I’m not sure if she actually has A.D.D. but it sure seems like it. Ugh, that’s awful… me talking about my sister. See what you’re doing to me, Sis?

Gorgeous Wedding Gowns

Here comes the bride…

No, I am not getting married… I just thought it’d be nice to post something on gorgeous wedding dresses that I’ve been seeing a lot of lately. After that blog on celebrity gowns, I’m sooo into looking at gowns of all sorts now. I’m such a girl… 😉

Here are some of my favorites:

Iridescent satin with embroidered flowers

Off-the-shoulder embroidered

Off-the-shoulder with three tiered skirt

Satin with crystal beading & rhinestones

Satin embroidered with rhinestones

Lace chiffon embroidered

Charmeuse criss-cross back

Taffeta satin with rhinestones

Strapless sweetheart with shirred tulle bodice

Silk satin off-the-shoulder

Halter with dropped waist

Chiffon A-line

Taffeta draped A-line

Satin & taffeta with beads & lace

Satin & organza A-line

Beaded V-neck halter

Satin pick-up with peek-a-boo neckline

Silk satin rhinestones & beading

Satin rhinestones & beading

Taffeta rhinestones & pearls

Off-the-shoulder satin

There are some of my favorite wedding dresses! Maybe you’ll get inspired and find some of your own…

Sometimes it’s good to think of things for the future, it gives you something to look forward to! ❤

I lost the web addresses to the ones with no links attached to the titles…oopsies!

Favorite Celebrity Gowns

There was a blog I found today about which celebrity dress was the best of the decade. I decided to do my own research and come up with a list of my own.

Fabulosity in Awards Gowns

Sandra Oh’s golden Marchesa gown at the 2009 Emmys

Hilary Swank’s plunging back Guy Laroche gown at the 2005 Oscars

Megan Fox’s gold Ralph Lauren gown at the 2009 Golden Globes

Anne Hathaway’s Armani Prive gown at the 2009 Oscars

Jennifer Lopez’s backless Marchesa gown at the 2009 Golden Globes

Freida Pinto’s blue John Galliano gown at the 2009 Academy Awards

Olivia Wilde’s white Marchesa gown at the 2009 Emmys

Cate Blanchett’s one-shoulder Armani Prive gown at the 2007 Oscars

Beyonce’s gold Elie Saab gown at the 2007 Golden Globes

Knockouts in Vermillion

Nicole Kidman’s red Balenciaga gown at the 2007 Oscars

Katherine Heigl’s red one-shoulder Escada gown at the 2008 Oscars

Scarlett Johansson’s red Valentino gown at the 2006 Golden Globes

Simply Stunning Gowns

Keira Knightley’s dark green dress in “Atonement”

Kate Hudson’s yellow dress in “How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days”

Taylor Swift’s light green dress in her “Teardrops On My Guitar” music video

Tyra Banks’s blue dress in the February 2008 “Entertainment Weekly”

Marilyn Monroe’s white dress in “The Seven Year Itch”

Let’s see what you all think! Feel free to comment on whichever celebrity dresses (especially ones not mentioned in my post) you think are the most beautiful! =)

Movies & More On This Christmas Day


So this afternoon my family and I went to see “Avatar” at the Irvine Spectrum. A group of six saw the IMAX 3-D version and my group of five saw the regular version. Ohmygoodness it was amazing!!! I seriously enjoyed every minute of it – except the beginning when I was still trying to figure out what it was about. I literally felt moments of sadness, joy, betrayal, despair, happiness, love… It was wonderfully made. Sam Worthington is pretty attractive too!!! (Maybe even as a Na’vi ;-)… just kidding!) Haha you should see the movie because Worthington is worth it. Seriously though… go see it… NOW!

Onwards! Soooo, new movie “Beastly” should be… umm… strange. “…a modern take on Beauty and the Beast…” All right so how exactly can you do that??? I thought the original version was pretty bomb, but you know how everyone needs a “modern” version of everything these days. Vanessa Anne Hudgens. Sorry to talk bad on Christmas, but seriously?! You couldn’t have gotten a real actress?! She can’t sing, she can’t act, she’s stupid (nude photos of herself… HELLO are you retarded?), and she is NOT pretty… I don’t even know how she’s famous… Ugh, and now she’s getting attention from me because I’m talking bad about her… Anyway, ohhh, and Alex Pettyfer is in it! Super hot British actor!!! But really? I don’t even want to think of them kissing… I’d love to see more of him, but, girl, just disappear. Oooo, NPH! Okay, you gotta love him! He’s amazing!!!!! Honestly, I’m not seeing it until it comes out on DVD. And I’ll only rent it because of Neil Patrick Harris and Alex Pettyfer!

Another thing that happened tonight that bothered me a lot was my sister… I know it’s horrible to rant on and on about what bothers me… ON CHRISTMAS… but I just need to get it off my chest so that I can get on with my night. Okay, here it goes… You can skip this paragraph if you want… I still love Christmas by the way!!! I really don’t mean to bring anyone down. So, tonight my sister decides to wear this pretty cute dark red sweater-dress. It would’ve looked pretty nice if maybe she didn’t eat so much or held her tummy in or if she wore normal stockings instead of fishnets! Really?! On Christmas you’re going to wear fishnets… In front of your grandparents, your aunts and uncles, and your baby cousins who are three-years-old and under??? Okay, sorry but I have to say it… slut. If you would’ve worn that same sweater-dress and those same fishnets another day it would’ve been all good. I know you always love to play up your tango “able-ness” but you don’t always have to. I wore a formal black dress with purple flowers and plain black stockings. Simple. Classy. Appropriate. You should try it sometime.

Okay, get on with your lives!!! I free you from reading about my life. Go make some memories of your own! 😉

Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas

Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas – Christina Aguilera

Have yourself a merry little Christmas
Let your heart be light
From now on your troubles will be out of sight

Have yourself a merry little Christmas
Make the Yuletide gay
From now on your troubles will be miles away

Here we are as in olden days
Happy golden days of yore
Faithful friends who are dear to us
Gather near to us once more

Through the years we all will be together
If the fates allow
Hang a shining star upon the highest bow
And have yourself a merry little Christmas now



My family celebrated Christmas eve with a popular Chinese dinner “da bin lo” which translates to “hot pot”. What is so great about this is that everyone can sit around the boiling pot in the middle and add whatever they want to the broth-y mix. What I love about it is that everyone always has such a fun time socializing and mingling over dinner. Then after dinner, as people were starting to leave, a quick thought came to my mind…

What would I do without family?

Honestly, I have no idea what I would do. I am so attached to my family and I absolutely love spending time with everyone. Traditional Chinese family = many people = LOUD! I’m used to the volume our conversations reach, I’m used to the memories randomly thrown out of times when my aunts and uncles were younger, and I’m used to the smiles and laughter that are shared throughout our time together.

The four little girls running around and being cute with their little smiles and little voices. Sooo adorable! I just love kids!!! They enjoy everything they do and it’s so easy to make them happy and smile. They have no worries at all; they just want to live and be taken care of. They just want happiness. They trust and, even though they may be extremely naive at times, they believe that all people are good. You and I were once like that… It is so heartening to see them run straight to you with arms wide open. They know you’ll be there for them and not try to trick them or turn away from them. It tells me that they have good homes and are being well-taught about life.

There is a at least a 10-year gap between the older children of my grandma (my oldest uncle, my mom, an aunt, and an uncle) and the younger ones (two uncles and another aunt). They are all all cheery and full of laughter. The older ones gaze upon the little girls and remember how their own children used to be like. The younger aunts and uncles laughing because they look upon the older ones looking at the little ones. So many memories… The oldest little girl reminds all the aunts and uncles of my sister who is the oldest grandchild. I can picture it sometimes. She’s quite a handful; fun but it’s definitely a kind of crazy fun. She’s so lively and is such a character. It’s hilarious to watch my mom’s facial expressions turn from super happy to frowning as she remembers my sister growing up. “She was wonderful, but had her moments…” she says. Love you, Mom! You’ve done well!

Then, my grandparents just taking in all that’s going on; the new technology, the memories, the developing personalities of the children. They’ve lived good lives and it shows in their children (my aunts and uncles) and the way they interact with other family members like my cousins and myself. We’re so full of love and you can tell that my grandparents raised their children in a good home full of support.

Christmas is easily my favorite holiday! I get to spend it with the ones I love most, my family. I am the person I am today because of how they have affected me. Their love and support and happiness have filled my own life. They’ve steered me in the right direction. They want me to find happiness in my life so that I can continue spreading the love. The love they have given me and has always been with me since the day I was born.

I love all of you!!!!! <3<3<3

Merry Christmas everyone!!! Happy holidays! Spend time with your family! They may not show it all the time, but they love you and they love having you in their lives!